Ryan

Average white male, 40, postal worker, unhappily married (but gladly separated since summer of 2010 ... divorce on hold ...), living in the Portland, Oregon (USA) area. I'm honest, dedicated, sincere, wistful, nostalgic, defeated, melancholy, bitter, passive-aggressive, apathetic, angry, resentful, regretful ... I am many things, often all at once.

And, YES, that glass is half-EMPTY.

The ONLY reason I'm even bothering to remain on this planet with the rest of you fine people is because of my wonderful 12-year-old daughter (the true love of my life).

Otherwise ... POOF! Peace out, and "goodbye, cruel world" ... (that's not a "threat" or a "cry for help" ... just a true fact).

I'm usually pretty easygoing, but OCD people ANNOY THE HELL OUT OF ME. Drama, drama, drama. Focusing on the minute details so much you're missing the bigger picture. Makes me want to puke.

I'm not religious. There's no reason to be, because there are no gods. I'm a good person to those that are deserving of that kind of treatment (according to ME). And that's the end of THAT.

Would I ever attend a high school reunion? FUCK NO ... I hope I never see any one of those losers ever again in my life.

...and no, I don't maintain a "blog". In fact, the profile you are now reading is probably the lengthiest piece of information there is about me anywhere, let alone on the internet. And I'm no "Luddite" but I LIKE that.

There are a few blogs that are interesting, I'm sure, but for the most part, people just waste their time on them for no good reason other than self-validation, like, "Look, world ... I exist!" I view them like those cheesy Christmas "brag " letters that one certain snooty aunt & uncle used to send along with their Christmas cards every year. My life is pretty 2-Dimensional, and I would actually be amazed if anyone wanted to read about MY daily exploits. Facebook is for CHUMPS - noboby gives a crap about "what you ate for breakfast."

(not to "dis" anyone who actually does maintain a blog ... I'm just sayin' ... in MY case)

Music is my life ... it's helped me through many a hard time, and I can't imagine life without it. If YOU can, I'd rather not know you at all.

What music do I like? Oh, I could go onandonandon ... Jon Brion, Elliott Smith, Eels, Drake Bell (don't laugh, he's really good!), First Wave Hello, Astrud Gilberto, Eisley, Midnight Oil, Beck, Antonio Carlos Jobim, the Cardigans, Belly, Brendan Benson, Delays, Dandy Warhols, Enya, Adiemus, Soundgarden, Jayhawks, Ken Andrews, Madonna, Nine Inch Nails, Shins, Snow Patrol, Veruca Salt (pre-breakup), Kool Keith, DJ P, Prince, Duran Duran, the Go-Go's, Keane, Coldplay, the Vines, etc ... and I'm ALWAYS up for a good "blend" (mashup, if you must call it that).

Recently been getting into "beats", discovering wonderful instrumental soundscapes by the likes of J Dilla, 9th Wonder, etc ... lately been bumping the "Special Herbs Box Set" by MF Doom ... underground instrumental hip-hop! It's amazing (though some would say a bit repetitive, but a "song" will go on for about two minutes and then switch into the next song, so you don't get bored) ... pick it up if you like good background music or you just want some interestingly fresh beats to free-style rap to (ha-ha!), and it's WORK-FRIENDLY!

Observe & Report, Better Off Dead, Back to the Future, Clerks, Pulp Fiction, Young Guns ... Cinderfella with Jerry Lewis ... most anything with Clint Eastwood, Mark Wahlberg, Brad Pitt.

I like comedy, but NOT a lot of "gross-out" humor (ie, the 40-Year-Old-Virgin? No thanks.)

I love the whole "TV on DVD" thing going on these days --- Dexter, Sons Of Anarchy, Breaking Bad, Rescue Me, The Shield, Sopranos, Dead Like Me, Arrested Development, Little House on the Prairie (makes me cry EVERY time), Seinfeld.

I've been watching waaaaaay too much HGTV lately ... must be my age.

I used to LOVE doing the "mix-CD" swaps on here ... since they banned them, I RARELY come around ... maybe once or twice a year, and that's enough to remind me why I don't use this site anymore.